How I Got Here

I wish I could say that my weight is due to the fact that I have 5 kids and that they are so close in age. Sadly, that is not the case. I weighed 130 pounds when I got pregnant with Brodie (babe #1) and by the time I had Sawyer (babe #4) I weighed 150. I was fine with 150 and I would kill to be that now. When Sawyer was about 8 months old, I had a miscarriage. This threw me into a spiral of depression and comfort eating. To this day, I still feel sad about the baby we lost and feel like I am have to deal with that pain alone. Happily, a couple months later we got pregnant with Elliot (babe #5) and I gained little weight when pregnant with her.

The combination of having 5 small kids and also dealing with depression was the reason I ate so unhealthily (is that even a word?). It was my comfort and something that was constantly there for me no matter what. The pounds kept adding up and up gradually until I got to the point I am at now. I weigh 170 pounds and wear a size 16. I know there are people much bigger than that, but to me this feels enormous. I have never been this big in my life.

The decision to stop eating meat in November had a lot to do with health reasons (and also TONS of environmental reasons) and I really do feel much better having that out of my system. Now it is time to take it even further and make a lifestyle change that involves exercise and eating even better! I truly feel it is as much about attitude as it is actions.